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I like to take a moment to thank you, my loved ones for all the encouragement you have given to me/us, this is so valuable, so important, especially when I feel down, which I did last week. Sometimes it might be impossible for you to realise how much your care is appreciated and when your love is needed the most. The wonderful thing about love is that it travels instantly to the heart and knows no barrier like physical proximity, this we see from communicating across the world to family and friends in China, Australia and NZ by face time, skype and sms.

The psychological aspect of long term illness is daunting to say the least, and eighteen months into my journey, story, battle or whatever you might prefer to call it, it is part of the deal for us the patients and our loved ones to endure as best we can. Stress is definitely not a good thing for any cancer patient and should be avoided wherever possible.

I watched a BBC news clip last week where they illustrated that although there may be thousands of people who have survived cancer, that wonderful number does not speak to the quality of the post cancer life that they may be experiencing, whether that is tough due to medication side effects or otherwise. They interviewed a young guy (maybe in his 40's) who had not only survived cancer as a child, he had again done so again as an adult. He told that the emotional pressure was so intense that he ended up with PTS (Post Traumatic Stress) which turned out for him to be worse than the cancer itself!

Thanks to god and everyone else (including me), last week was the first time during my cancer saga that I heard myself saying to myself: "Hey, watch out, you are feeling frustrated and deflated by the current situation and thinking not so positively about the winning this fight, if you are not careful you can easily get depressed and make it even more difficult for yourself" and fortunately at about the same time I watched that BBC News programme and what this ex cancer patient was saying about PTS. That helped me to realise what I was doing to myself, where those trains of thought would take me and enabled me to start pulling my nose up and point it in the right direction again = this way please = be hopeful and optimistic.

So help can come from the most unexpected sources, cos I never would have expected that to come from a BeeB programme. 

We all need encouragement, last Monday it was a dear friend urging me to "Fight, Fight, Fight and never give up!" her timing was perfect, I needed a strong reminder that day.

Fortunately the after effects from the hernia op (anaesthetic) two weeks ago have finally subsided. Today, after another IV of 45gr Vitamin C, some B complex and Ozone yesterday in Rotterdam, I am having the best day I have had for the past two weeks and seem to have regained my optimism, inner peace and "happy feeling", my chi / energy is up again and I only get a bit of discomfort now from the ulcers next to my small intestines (they flared up again after the op). From what I hear from other patients at the PMC clinic, most people feel better and more energetic after the Vit C, B Ozone IV, well this is the first time I felt that, and that gives hope too.

Funnily enough, today three dear friends have shared about breakthroughs / huge success stories in their personal lives, which have recently occurred. Interesting how that works.. I smile and the world smiles with me, I cry and everyone then seems to be drowning in tears, is it really that simple? ha ha you go figure that out for yourself, seems obvious to me!